it's pretty easily seen that i'm chasing after Aristotle's sense of things right now. you could probably just as easily say he's my hero as of late. i can't help but feeling like a traitor. i think he did,too.

But no doubt it would be admitted to be better, indeed to be necessary when keeping the truth safe is at stake, even to abandon the things that are one's own, both for other reasons and because we are philosophers; for while both the truth and one's friends are loved, it is a sacred thing to give the higher honor to the truth.

-Aristotle

It would seem as if the rulers of our time sought only to use men in order to make things great; I wish that they would try a little more to make great men; that they would less set less value on the work, and more upon the workman; that they would never forget that a nation cannot long remain strong when every man belonging to it is individually weak; and that no form of combination of social policy has yet been devised to man an energetic people out a community of pusillanimous and enfeebled citizens.

-Alexis De Tocqueville

So good-night, gentlemen. Perdonate mi, and do not dwell so much on my faults as not to give good thought to your own.
-Rabelais

45 minutes till late night.

This is my class and me in lab when I had the beatific vision. It's also me with short hair.



And this is me more lately. Reese and James are getting married this summer.

It seems that all we can claim to have achieved is the exchange of one question for another, or even less than that, the exchange of a dim to a less obscure form of the same question. The only comfort lies in the suspicion that this is perhaps what the truly wonderous things want us to do: not chase for answers but understand the questions and, implicitly, the questioner.

-victor zuckerkandl

Pictures of Stuart's Special Forces graduation this last February.

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There's a certain Slant of Light,
Winter Afternoons-
That oppresses, like the Heft
Of Cathedral Tunes

Heavenly Hurt, it gives us-
We can find no scar,
But internal difference,
Where the Meanings, are-

None may teach it-Any-
Tis the Seal Despair-
An imperial affliction
Sent us of the Air-

When it comes, the Landscape listens-
Shadows-hold their breath-
When it goes,'tis like the Distance
On the look of Death-

Emily Dickinson

the minimized windows below my document:
dictionary.com scratch that it's thesaurus.com
freetranslation.com
http://stmarys.class ---->classical music library
http://stmarys.class ---->classical music player (on pause/stop because i usually can't work and listen to music)

the maximized windows that need be closed:
blogger- edit blog

so this is how that limerick actually goes:

There once was a man from Nantucket
Who Kept all his cash in a bucket;
But his daughter named Nan
Ran away with a a man,
And as for the bucket, Nantucket




it was in the tan book, figured it had to make it here sometime.

sometimes i stay up late to the point where i get nauseous and i can hear chiming bells in my head. there's also blotchy colors. at least i think those bells are in my mind and not elsewhere. these usually mark the time when i walk to my bed without brushing my teeth or washing my face or sometimes without taking my contacts out. maybe it's because i like to think everyone else is asleep. maybe it's just a better time to think, or that time to think won't let me pass. i know a little bit is me accepting the bleeding exhaustion. even welcoming it.

do you ever feel cheap for using a thesaurus? probably most english teachers recommend you use one; it makes you smarter if it doesn't improve your vocabulary. but maybe we're really supposed to stare at the tip of the pencil or the blinking vertical line until we find exactly the right word we're looking for. it's either that or pick from a list of "eloquent" (man i don't like that word right now; might as well attach an essay on fakiness to it. i'd say phony, but there's enough holden in this world)words you somewhat know the relative meaning of, and plug it in there. only you don't have the experience with the word, just roget's or american heritage said so. i guess sometimes you feel good about the word, but usually cheap too.

the funny thing about the chiming bells is i've never heard that music before.

A man who seeing his mother starving to death on a path kicks her in the stomach to clear the way, will cheerfully devote several hours of his time giving wrong directions to a total stranger who claims to be lost.
-j.s.

Because Katyana doesn't want to hear it anymore...

I present to you the greatest Top Gun quotes.....evah.

Iceman: You two really are cowboys.
Maverick: What's your problem, Kazanski?
Iceman: You're everyone's problem. That's because every time you go up in the air, you're unsafe. I don't like you because you're dangerous.
Maverick: That's right! Ice... man. I am dangerous.

Iceman: The plaque for the alternates is down in the ladies room.

Maverick: I feel the need...
Maverick, Goose: ...the need for speed!

Goose: No. No, Mav, this is not a good idea.
Maverick: Sorry Goose, but it's time to buzz a tower.

Maverick: Too close for missles, I'm switching to guns.

Maverick: Jesus Christ, and you think I'm reckless? When I fly, I'll have you know that my crew and my plane come first.
Charlie: Well, I am going to finish my sentence, Lieutenant. My review of your flight performance was right on.
Maverick: Is that right?
Charlie: That is right, but I held something back. I see some real genius in your flying, Maverick, but I can't say that in there. I was afraid that everyone in the tax trailer would see right through me, and I just don't want anyone to know that I've fallen for you.

Viper: How ya doin'?
Maverick: I'm all right.
Viper: Goose is dead.
Maverick: I know.
Viper: You fly jets long enough, something like this happens.
Maverick: He was my R.I.O., my responsibility.
Viper: My squadron we lost 8 of 18 aircraft. 10 men. First one dies you die too, but there will be others. You can count on that. You gotta let him go. You gotta let him go.

Slider: Gutsiest move I ever saw, man.

Maverick: I will fire when I'm damn well ready!

You can call us Aaron Burr by the way we're dropping Hamiltons.

And I'm ghost like Swayze